Screw You Anxiety

    Alright let's get right to the point, anxiety sucks. If you’re someone that has anxiety I'm sorry for all the people that have ever told you to just breath or to just calm down. If you’re someone who doesn't have anxiety then I suggest you read this. Let's get one thing out of the way. Anxiety is not caused by one thing or something that happened. Most of the time it's due to a collection of bad thoughts or worries. Its an overwhelming feeling of panic that could happen at any second. Anxiety isn’t just worrying, I mean it starts as worrying. Then that turns into something scary and uncontrollable. Your brain starts fighting itself and then everything is happening you start losing it. Another misconception is that people only get anxiety when they’re in stressful situations. Your brain is always working, it's not going to stop for anything. People that have anxiety have constant fears running through their head and at any given moment they could have a panic attack. From the outside, it's easy to think someone has it figured out. People assume if you can not see the pain then it must not really be there as if the pain does not exist unless you have a broken bone or you’re bleeding. Sometimes the most painful demons are the ones inside. We learn how to smile. How to smile and act like nothing is happening, because nobody wants to talk about the hard stuff. Hell, I don’t want to talk about the hard stuff in my life. So what does a person who has anxiety feel like? It feels like every cell in your body is moving so fast you can’t stand it. It feels like bees buzzing in your ears. You don’t notice that you're grinding your teeth, cracking your knuckles, or rubbing your hands together. You might stare at someone and act like you’re listening to them but you can't hear a thing. Not because you want to, but because you're so pulled into the voices in your head. Anxiety makes you feel like you're burning up. You are in a dripping sweat. Your heart feels like it's going to burst through your chest. The inside of your cheek is becoming raw because you've been chewing at it all day. You feel like you're moving faster than the sixty seconds in a minute. It doesn’t feel like a math class where everything adds up to a problem because most of the time there is no problem. There is no life or death situation, no rhyme or reason, just feelings that you feel all at once. Some days are good and some days are horrible. In all, they're just days. Nobody chooses to have anxiety. Nobody wants to feel like they're out of control. For crying out loud NEVER ask someone if they have taken their medication. We already feel like we're crazy. Asking us just clarifies that there really is something wrong with us. So please for the love of God take this blog into consideration. Don’t say there's nothing to worry about because in our mind we already know. We know there is nothing to worry about but we feel like we need to. We also know that we are extremely grateful for the lives we're living, but we can’t control our minds. Take it easy on us, sometimes we just need to stop and take deep breaths for five minutes.